Blogs from Jupiter

My brother Jake and I just checked Papa’s computer. We saw the electronic copy of his Book of Mysteries and several manuscripts of his unfinished works. He also wrote to us letters, final requests and last words of advice, which we think he prepared early this year going towards the end of June. He was hospitalized sometime end of June.

His letters to us were direct to the point, sometimes blunt. Enumerating to us one by one our weaknesses, and how we can resolve these weaknesses. Allow me to share one of the letters:

June 26, 2007

My dear children,

I have never been this sick. I have never felt this weak. I could not eat. My back and my chest seem to be pressed. There is pain in my ribs and stomach. I do not know if I shall recover. Anyway I am 77 years old and will be 78 in my coming birthday. Is my time on earth coming to close?

If I go, do not grieve for me. Nobody dies. When the time comes, I will go to another world, more beautiful than this one. Time on earth is too short. What is it compared to eternity? All of you will someday go to the higher world. We shall be together again. We shall be with our ancestors, ascendants and future descendants. We come to earth on a divine pilgrim. We are true children of God and soon we shall resurrect to God consciousness. The born is certain to die. The dead is certain to be reborn. That is the cycle of life until we realize that we are God’s children.

I want you to know that I love all of you. It is not easy to leave you. But it is inevitable. What is there to grieve about? Jupiter, my first born son, I was very happy when we were in Cotabato together. You call the pigs “bao” (kalabaw). I carried you across a deep canal passing over a narrow bamboo bridge. I was afraid we might fall but you were very excited. In my office in Cotabato City, you said “we are rich. We even have ships.” At the airport, you went around and shook hands with all the people there. The congressman was so amused. He commented that although you are a little boy, you are campaigning already.

I am plagued by the memory of having whipped you three times when you were a child. And each time I recall the incidents, my soul cries. How could I have done that madness? And when you were hit by a jeepney, I died. I was so grateful to God that you recovered. I want you to be more successful than I; to be happier; to achieve greater heights of spiritual achievement. Don’t waste your time and resources. Don’t allow anyone to take advantage of you, or your weakness. Be strong.

You, Janaka, you were the weakest in childhood. It took you a long time to walk and to talk. At times you do not eat unless I feed you personally. Such weakness becomes compensated by greater strength of character that leads to success and happiness. Do not ever be discouraged. We are all destined to be great, to evolve into Gods. Everything is God. All that exist is God.

Marichi, I love you. You often want to sleep beside me when you were a child. I sense potential wisdom in you even when you were a child. Be practical. Don’t waste your time and resources. Unfold like a flower in the garden of God. Be happy.

Govinda, don’t waste your time, talents and resources on useless and distractive activities. You are the only one who can help most your mama and siblings. Take care of your career. Take care of your mama. Take care of Osiris. If you take care of him, he will be great and helpful. Love each other and show that love by mutual assistance. Your first duty is to your mama and siblings.

Your mama works more than a servant. Nobody takes care of her. Do the utmost that you can while she is still alive and strong. She will not be with you on earth forever. God requires that we all become pure. That is the first requirement. Be good to your sister, Grace. She suffered more in childhood. She was treated badly when your auntie Pat left her in this country. When she was a teenager, she worked as a waitress in a restaurant in California.

I regret that I did not enrich myself. I turned down all opportunities for wealth because of my vow of renunciation. I could have given you a better life. If you become my children again in the next earth life, I will make life easier, happier and more successful for all of you.

I love you all,

PAPA

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We love you very much Papa.